1K a day will make you insane

Back around the end of December I had a thought that went something like this: "Hey remember back in November when you sold your soul to noveling and wrote nearly 2 thousand words a day? Remember how awesome it felt to write that much and create that much? Remember what it was like to watch that awesome graph bar go up everyday?"

And then I thought to myself: "it'd be really swell to do that ALL YEAR LONG!"

Which is how I made the goal to write 1 thousand words a day. It was going pretty well for a long time, but I've begun to reach the point where things are getting hard and sticky and unattractive and discouraging. My word count is currently about 35k words (which is about 140 double spaced pages on my word doc), and really, getting that much done is pretty impressive. But I feel like everything that I write is awful and I feel like everything I submit to my creative writing class is just being ripped apart, because they fail to understand that a lot happens in the 6,000 words a week they're not reading.

The kids/students in my writing group have about half my word count. They're still in the beginning stages of their work and most of them write chronologically. And I find myself in this headspace where no one quite gets what I'm doing and no one is taking my word that I've got a grip on it.

And yet, I still try to do 1k a day, even though I feel drained and worn out and not excited about the writing or the creation anymore, because the practice and the habit is good for me.

Unlike the wise words of Owl City, I do need a telescope to see that there is hope and it doesn't make me feel brave. :/

Corpus

Dear Grammar Class Corpus Searches,

You are seriously the biggest waste of my time to date. You are neither easy, quick, enjoyable, or even useful. I am NOT a linguist, I am an editing minor. These searches don't help me DO ANYTHING. I don't learn anything from them, and had I not been conditioned in my youth to jump through hoops to get points, I seriously wouldn't bother fussing with you at all. My other editing friends (one of whom is a linguist) have never used corpus searches. I don't see why I should have to.

You are the devil. Please leave my life. I have enough to do.

Sincerely,
I'd rather face a pack of dementors than deal with you right now.

P.S. And the fact that you're a weekly pest only makes me want to do you less.